Just a little update . . .

Well a lot has happened since my last update, my dad had his liver transplant on Thursday 23rd April 2009, :). I was due to travel down to london on this day but obviously events on wedsnesday night, when he was called in put paid to this, im back in london now but I am going back on this Thursday coming, as we are all still taking baby steps on his road to recovery as we have a long road ahead of us.

I had my occupational health check at chase farm today, my mantoux test although had a lump to begin with has now gone completely flat. also i had my bloods taken for my antibody checks, and now it really hurts :(

I'm feeling really hormonal today, but i think for once my body is actually doing what it should be doing and ovulating, which all in all is a good thing but im still feeling hormonal because of it, also im feeling really broody as well, just typical *rolls eyes*. Trying to put myself in a better mood for later hope it works


lizzie xxx

Unwritten

I am unwritten,
can't read my mind,
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning,
the pen's in my hand,
ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate
the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition,
sometimes my tries,
are outside the lines
We've been conditioned
to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate
the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate
the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Yeah ok this is gonna sound silly but i did a quiz on facebook the other day and this song came out as the theme of my life and right now to me it sounds just about right and it means alot to me :)

Today i realised something . . . my biggest problem is that I just need to let go . . . but these things are easier said than done . . . I've got to learn that it is impossible to control everything, I can't control the future the way I want to, I can only help by the decisions I make how my future pans out. Im biggest fear is the unknown, I know realise I must embrace this and not to shy away from it.

All i have to do now i follow my own advice, this should be fun ;)

We are all actors on the stage of life its just that some of us are better at acting that everything is ok than others . . .

Ready for Bed

Sometimes before I sleep, I picture us snuggling, my fingers tracing circles on your chest while we speak quietly. Those are the nights I have good dreams. :)